trying to keep the big picture in mind..

When I was pregnant with Addy, I was sick for 7 months straight. Only when I was drugged did I feel like it was worth waking up in the morning. This time, the first 8 weeks was GREAT! I was out in Indiana for pretty much all of it. I was working out every day, cleaning and packing...things that should normally make me even more tired during the first trimester. But I felt great! Not until we got back to Idaho, and moved into our new apt did all the HORRIBLE symptoms start. I just don't understand how you can feel amazing one day and wake up dry heaving the next day. I kept thinking that maybe I over-did it packing up and moving so much and that it would go away once I got rest. Nope..that was wishful thinking. It's been two weeks straight of not being able to eat anything and everything that helped last time isn't working this time. All those suggestions to try ginger, peppermint etc...nothing works. Except the expensive, but oh so wonderful zofran. But of course with all the moving, we had to get back on our insurance in Idaho which is still pending so I can't get those oh so wonderful drugs at the moment. I just wish they could pin-point what causes the nausea and smells to just show up overnight..and why some get it and some don't. I believe that being healthy helps a great deal..but even the biggest health nuts I know still get sick. I guess it's bugging me more this time having an active 14 month old that wants me to chase her around all day and I can't..so it makes me feel like a horrible mother and wife when I can't keep up with all the things I normally do. I can't cook good meals because every smell under the sun makes me nauseous. I can't keep everything picked up off the floor because everytime I stand up I get dizzy and poor Addy doesn't understand why I'm curled up on the couch not wanting to move. And don't get me started on the mood swings..poor Chris!! But then I have to put things in perspective and everytime I look at my beautiful, happy girl I remember why this is all worth it..and I'll sacrifice and go through anything for these perfect little spirits. Thank goodness for family close by to come play with Addy so I can get rest. That little girl is sure missing her friends from the summer!