one of those days...

Ever had a day,
When you just felt like you were no good at being a mom,
being a wife,
Where you failed at your list of things to do?
..and as hard as you tried to keep the kids happy and entertained,
you lost your patience and yelled more than you should,
and the house looks like you were up to no good..

My mom seemed to be able to always have everything spotless...
meals always wonderful and on time,
our laundry always folded and put away...
always time to spend with us,
and have exercised and looking amazing before we woke up.

the lyrics to this song have summed up how I feel, when you just have one of those days:

This hasn't been a been a day,
that I would call my best.
I'd give myself a failing grade,
if this had been a test.

I did not comfort you,
when you were all alone.
I was too busy crying through some problems of my own
Today I have not been the mom you needed me to be
and tonight I wish that you could sing a lullaby for me

I'm glad that you could sleep,
I wish that I could too
I'm sorry that today I wasn't really here for you.
I must have slipped away
to some far distant land
where I'm the child who cries until her mother holds her hand
today I have not been the mom you needed me to be
tonight I wish that you could sing a lullaby for me

tomorrow I'll reclaim my proper place
I'll tuck you in
and gently kiss your face
I'll do the things a mother's meant to do
and I'll know what those things should be
because now I need them too.

This hasn't been a day
that I want to repeat
I'm sorry I could only say I'm sorry when you sleep
today I have not been the mom you needed me to be
tonight I wish that you could sing a lullaby for me.
tonight I need someone to sing a lullaby for me.